Its been three days since it ended. We had been dating for a long time. I didn't go to college for her, I turned down Lacrosse scholarships to stay for her. I had cheated and messed up, because she stopped caring about me and I was looking for someone to care, and we were on a "break".I knew I had messed up so I fixed everything I became perfect. She changed when she went to her new school this year in the beginning A LOT. She started being cold and distant and I started hearing things. I let them go because I loved her. She told me her friends couldn't know we were dating it causes to much drama. I said OK and let it go. After months and months of me trying and her acting like nothing mattered, I couldn't take it and ended it. Only to find a day later that since the beginning of the year she had been cheating on me with multiple guys. more then enough and I had known I knew something was going on but I believe in love and I messed up so I let it all go. I believed her, she told me about our future, she made me stay from college for her, she told me that as she had been cheating on me. For 8 months she had been cold and distant and I fought for her just knowing she didn't love me like that anymore but I just wanted to keep trying and she kept telling me she did and she wasn't doing any of this. Then when we broke up she made me believe it was my fault like I did something wrong, when she had been playing me for months. She changed so much I don't know what happened to her. I just have no idea what to do with my self or how to even just go back to normal life... I need help from anyone
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I think when you really ponder on the course of your relationship either one have you should have known where it was going.
The signs were there, you just chose to ignore them in hopes that denial would keep the momentum going. But in the end the inevitable happened and you're left picking up the pieces of your life.
Yes, you sacrificed a scholarship for her, but dwelling on that will build resentment which can only hinder getting on with your future. We all make mistakes in life - some as small as choosing the wrong meal to as big as letting a scholarship go for love. Learn from it and move on.
I am not without sympathy for you - I realize that you were determined to move past your indiscretion, being on break doesn't excuse your behavior especially when you describe it as"cheating". It's evident now that it wasn't something she could look past. I know it felt as if you were scrambling to make up for one mistake and I completely fault her for not letting you go if she couldn't handle it. There is no excuse for her indecisiveness and leading you on.
I think you're struggling with regret more than anything else - have you asked yourself why you stayed since the signs of deterioration were pretty evident?
Knowing the truth about her should make you feel better not worse - according to you, you didn't do anything wrong. Now that you are not shackled to her anymore, you are free to live your life as you please. It's a good thing that you aren't with her.
You go back to your normal life gradually. Just like everyone else. The heartache will lessen as each day passes and you can take a very valuable lesson from this. No one is worth your future.
Sorry that it happened, but it will get better.