When depression hit my ex he told me that he wasn't worth it and literally vanished from my life no matter what I tried or did.
He talked to his friends saying I deserved better. This makes me feel physically sick, believing that everyone is equal. It is even worse knowing that he may think this.
What I want to do is to understand what could have been going through his head, and what might be now months later.
Regret? Is there anyway to reach him?