We broke up over a week ago. He broke up with me because he was unhappy. He loves me, but can't be with me. He said he's not ruling out the chance of us getting back together.
The other night, he was working the late shift at work and he was online, we talked until 2:30am about random stuff. Last night, I texted him and asked him how he was. He said good, and that he was going out drinking. He made it a point to tell me he was going out drinking. I asked him if I was bothering him, and he said no. I told him he didn't have to be nice, and he could say that I was bothering him if I was, he said I wasn't but he needed to drive. I asked him if we'd talk once he got there, he simply replied with, "IDK". So I just stopped talking to him.
I woke up to see his two away messages (he's not online now, but I saw it in my life stream and he hasn't been online all day), they are:
This is to a girl who got into my head
With all these pretty things she did
Hey Baby, You know that you keep me up in bed
It's to a girl who got into my head
With all the f***ed up things I did...
i'm so tired of days that feel like the night
"it's me and the moon," she says
and I got no trouble with that, but I am a butterfly, you wouldn't let me die
i am a butterfly, I am a butterfly, I am a butterfly
Am I reading too much into things, or what here? I want him back, but I know that I can't suffocate him and bother him all the time. He seems depressed. When we talked until 2:30am the other night, he told me that he had bought 'All Quiet on the Western Front', which he only reads when he's really depressed.
I dream about him EVERY night, and last night I dreamed that we talked over e-mail and almost got back together. I wanted to send hi m a message this morning but I chickened out. Then I wanted to change our Facebook back to in a relationship and see if he would accept it. And THEN I wanted to text him and tell him, 'I'm just going to tell people we're back together'--when we first started dating, I told him I was just going to tell people he was my boyfriend, and he agreed. But I chickened out and didn't want him to get mad, or reject me and be mean.
What so I do here?
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My boyfriend did the same, although he didn't say he was unhappy. He just broke it off. I agree give him some space. He has issues hun going on inside his own head, that's why he wrote the letter. He's dealing with demons telling him one thing and angels telling me another. I'm sure you are the best thing for him, but back off for at least a month, this will also give him time to really miss you, believe me.0