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Just think, many people have had the same/similar thing happen to them.
I know a man who's had the exact same thing happen to him. He ended up losing nearly everything he had: almost 85% of his assets plus child support, and can only see his kids in the holidays or weekends.
At first he was deathly quiet. I didn't know him that well at the time but there were days when I could feel his sorrow. For someone that had to work long, hard hours on a farm... it's pretty tragic.
But he has moved forward. Time did its thing. He kept going. Didn't stop for too long.
Try not to rely on cigarettes and the drink. I'm just stating the obvious, you know why.
Just remember that you're living your life. You technically have no obligation to anyone. Personal satisfaction should come above all, provided it doesn't hurt anyone else. I guess. Kind of sounds like I'm contradicting myself now...
You know the way out. It's hidden by layers of emotion. But once you let it all pass... you'll know what to do. How to move on. Best of luck for the future.