I'm feeling doubt and it hasn't been 24 hours since my decision. I just recently broke up with my boyfriend of 7 months. We've had a few bumps along the way, but our relationship has been without arguments or any fight what-so-ever.
The reason I broke things off was I felt things were becoming unfair. & I've realized that our love were two different types. I love him, but not the same way he loves me. He loves me for me as his girlfriend, but I love him as my friend. Hardly anything romantically.
For the past month things have been difficult, but now I see why I've felt hesitant going further with our relationship. Every time, he told me he loved me, it felt awkward because my love for him was only as a friend.
Maybe I'm confusing myself. As he was my first boyfriend.
I'm feeling doubt, I'm not sure if it was the best decision. But now I have to stand by what I've done.
I feel like an awful jerk. I've hurt him. I've broken his heart. I made him cry. & I hurt myself by doing so. I'd rather sacrifice my feelings to make him not feel as such.
I'm looking for outside perspectives. Any would be of help. I'm assuming it's natural to feel guilty?
As my first break up, is there anything I should be cautious of? Any post-break up advice would be nice.
Share your thoughts.
All comments appreciated.
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I find myself as the guy of your situation with my first girlfriend and love who broke it off with me 2 months ago. And she went the route of trying to be my friend and support for getting over her (wtf was she and I thinking... oy). But the end result of the story is I still felt like she was still with me since we talked alot, and then she absolutely shredded my heart to pieces when she regaled me with stories of her sexual romps with guys just because it's fun and the fact that she was dating 4 guys at the same time. FREAKING OUCH.
For the love of all that is holy, do NOT try and be friends with him right away. It will only prolong his pain and halt his healing. And do your best to not flaunt any new guys or sexual encounters or anything of that nature in public mediums that he may have access to. This is of course based on the fact that you still care about the fact that he is pain. The best thing you can do for him is to let him get over you and in time if he finds he still wants to be your friend, let HIM contact you.
As for you, what you did for yourself was honestly the smartest thing you could have done (no matter how much pain he, and i, have gone through in this type of situation). The end result is that you did not make this worse by staying in for longer and then coming to the same conclusion only with larger cards at stake. Your own feelings are the most important things in your life, and you should not feel bad for doing your best to get what makes you happy. It sucks for myself and your guy, but we will have to deal with it. Feeling bad for him is good, it shows you really do care, but in the end, we need to hold some level of selfishness in life or we could potentially live miserable lives.1