Problem is some stupid part of my brain translates that as him still caring. I can go for a good while without drunk texting him but then sometimes something happens and I do it. I did it last week and it's been 7months. I'm aware that's really pathetic and he probably thinks I'm an idiot but I have deleted his number.
I don't know how to act when I see him though. I feel so shitty he knows I'm this pathetic. I'm going to try minimise contact because I can't deal with these feelings anymore.