Most Helpful Guy
I'm sorry you're going through a tough time. But you are doing really well for hanging on!
Think of your situation right now like you've lost your balance. Your first trash is to just allow yourself to find your calm again. Your centre. Once you've leveled off, you can then start doing what is necessary for you to be happy.
Being just as human as you, I cannot guarantee that you'll ever fully forget, but the hurt does dull over time. In many cases, you'll even gain additional perspective that will help you gain closure to this. Please be safe, this hurt is just a part of being alive as is the happiness. :)
Most Helpful Girl
He's doing right and you're doing wrong. You made this guy your everything and he doesn't feel the same way about you. Nobody can really give you help on this issue. The only logical decision for you to make is for you to go get professional counseling and stop making excuses why you can't. If you're about to lose your identity and life over a guy, then he wasn't ever worth it from the beginning. No man or woman, in my opinion, is worth you going to jail, the hospital, psyche ward, the grave or losing your salvation for. Not worth it. You had no business having his number still and reaching him. You have to accept that reality and move on. For real this time. Because he is not hurting you. You hurting yourself. And you need to see what this is doing to you. If you really want help, get rid of everything that has to do with him. Picture, videos, social media, ETC. Block and delete. Don't have anything to do with him again. Don't let him control your life and your future. Don't give it to him.