Right before this all happened she met me at the door with hugs and kisses and then cuddled me talking about how she wanted our families to hang out more, that's when it changed all of a sudden she said she needed to find herself because she didn't know who she was anymore. So yes I cried and she grabbed me and even tried to kiss me but stopped herself. I had to leave and so I gave her her time. Well a week has gone by and we talked on the phone and she seemed excited to talk to me and she told me what she had been doing and that she had been talking to guys trying to see what she wanted but she kept saying she couldn't find what I had in them. Well I told her of all the things I had been thinking about and doing as I took the time to self reflect. The phone call seemed great and she said I sounded like the guy she fell in love with again. So I made a little joke about coming to see her and it sounded like she wanted to but then she said she couldn't because she just didn't want to fall back into love but then she said maybe tomorrow. Well the next day she texted me and said she thinks we should cut all ties and move on.
Now here I am stuck at a crossroads of whether this is her trying to get me to chase her and step up to the plate or if she really wants me to let her go. Do I move on? Do I surprise her after work and see if there's anything left? Do I wait longer?