Most Helpful Guy
Not everything you lose is a loss... leaving who doesn't realize your value is a new life.
you need to rebuild your self-confidence to know the difference between your life before and after that relationship.
this happens because you don't trust yourself, and that won't make you be able to the know the difference between a friend or enemy or bad or good for you.
the only way to get over someone is to extinguish all hope in the prospects that you can salvage your relationship.
the best way is to invest your time in yourself by helping the homeless, taking overtime work, get the edition that you need, helping uneducated children to learn or visit cancer patients to put a smile on their face... etc... all those things will help build your self-esteem and make you feel happy that you can change some things around you and you will also be able to change your life.
Don't give up.
Most Helpful Girl
Sounds like to me it's obsession. Whatever it is that you had with him, you have to let go or else go seek a professional counselor. Because what you're doing is very intrusive and it can lead you to God forbid be behind bars. Either you've been hurt, or you feel guilty about what happened between you two. Regardless, to what happened at this point. You have to let it go because he's not your life. Just stop. Because anything you do, that he wants to use against you, he can do so because you're supplying it. You need to lead your life. And you can't do that by you constantly doing this. That's all I can say. Just go get help. This website is not the place of something like this. But I doubt this is mental. This is more emotional and psychological. Hope this helps you make a decision.