OK it goes like this...I have no friends because I'm shy...I don't have a social life...I get more and more isolated and weird and bitter and depressed...most people don't want to befriend a depressed person...girls certainly don't wanna take a look...so I go deeper and deeper...I can't just throw on a happy face and even if I could..how would I present myself to people? "o yea, well my hobbies are being sad, sleeping because I hate being awake and feeling alone, and mumbling angry thoughts to myself, I don't really go out because I don't have friends..." I mean seriously...there was a girl on here and talking with her kept me sane...we live far away but I was saving money and planning on visiting her..but then she decides even though she loves me...she can't wait...and anyway there's a guy chasing her...so she just tells me I'm SOL after telling me she loves me...she was all I had...the hope of seeing her and knowing some1 out there loves me was all I had...I was devastated...I saw some light at the end but now its darker than ever...my few friends have gone off to school while I stayed at home and worked while going to a juco..and we've kinda grown apart, we've hung out a bit this summer buy I rarely see them during the school year...I have nothing left...and I don't have any hope I ever will...I'm just wondering what left can I do? I feel like I don't wanna exist...I just wanna take some drug that will make me numb so I never feel anything again...is there anything left I could do?
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ermm that Girl didn't exist, she couldve been a pedaphile or some dangerous person even. you dnt know ANYTHING bout her. ur only reading what a profile online is writing...SO you do need your head tested. and girls won't fall for you cause we are very emotional creatures we dnt need a partner the same as us. we need confident people. AND as long as your breathing, youv got hope. God has a plan for you. you are not accidently. there are healthy women who never concieve and no doctor knows why; cause God doesn't want them to have children. and there are 60 year old wmen who give bith to twins. So you are here for a reason. Do some charity work at your hospital. for a few days make people happy; give someone ur bus seat, or give them a compliment, make it up. tell ur family how much you love them. if you can't live for yourself, at least live for others.
Ps. then again I myself am suicidal, but I wouldn't dare commit sucide cause my religion doesn't allow it (Islam) and its a sin even thinking bout it.
So...all the best xxx0
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