I was with my ex for 8-9 years. Broke up 9-10 months ago. I've been dating for 5-6 months and got together about 2 weeks ago. He's a wonderful guy. But I literally think about my ex everyday since we broke up. I'm at the point where I actually despise my ex so much because I can't wrap around my head how I was treated unfairly despite seriously loving that guy. Am I not over him or is this normal?