My ex and I broke up and for the most part it was my fault, I was in a lot of chronic pain, due to an illness, and I lashed out at him basically calling him from deceitful phone numbers and calling him several times during the day and sending deceitful emails, interfering with his business. Also many years back he had a car accident, where someone passed away, as well as a dog, and I called him a murderer. Anyway, the pain of my medical condition is more under control, but it is possible that this illness can be come fatal or that I may need surgery and I am scared. I need his support. Should I expect it?