Although I have mostly detached from him emotionally, I find myself wanting to dream about him. I even enjoy these dreams because every time, he is the ideal man I always wanted him to be. The dreams are usually me fantasizing and reminiscing on our old sex life. He was my first love and the first man I had ever slept with and ever been with. Our sex life was the best thing about our relationship. We were always compatible and in the same page in that area. Even when I'm awake, I find myself playing back old memories from the bedroom.
Why do I want to dream about my ex when I'm through with him? And why do I enjoy it?
Side note: I broke up with him last month and we have not been in contact since. I plan to keep it this way and do not plan on trying for a friends with benefits because I don't think I could handle it.