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I feel the same way. I still love my wife but she's divorcing me. I thought we had a perfect marriage but the second I told her I was transgender, she's like I'm out.
So not only am I heartbroken but I'm like if I can't stay with her then who? I mean people hate trans people even though as I appear just a straight normal man. If you say you're trans to people they just run. Even your own wife who you think you can share anything with. Guess not...
But specifically for you. You can't lie to yourself. I mean you can't sustain the change even if you change for him because it's not you. I have lied a thousand times to women just so I can experience love. And it's worth it until I can't lie any longer and we break up. Is it really worth it? I don't know because I have kids and they are worth the lie to me. So I don't know. It's a crazy f**ked up world. That's all I have to say :-)