Most Helpful Guy
I'm so sorry to hear of your loss. I can only imagine how empty you must feel. In the UK we have a bereavement service called CRUISE, make contact them or with your local equivalent. Remember, moving on is an acceptance of your loss and not a betrayal of your bf's memory.3THIS IS NOT RELEVANT ANYMORE
Most Helpful Girl
You'll be able to love, you just need time to get to that point.
It sounds like you need to talk to a professional about what you're feeling, they could help you process your emotions. Right now it sounds like you're trying to numb yourself and your emotions, which isn't healthy.1THIS IS NOT RELEVANT ANYMORE