My next door neighbor is a cop and ever since I was 15 he flirted with me, touched me, would send me very strong flirty texts, ask me to come over and give me drinks when I was a minor. I kept all the texts and cuddled with him to get him to admit what he has done and show his true colors and recorded everything. I want to eventually show it to his wife who I happen to be good friends with, but I know 100% he will do something to me so I'm terrified. I feel sick by the things he's told me and how I cuddled with him. I can't go on keeping this secret and makikkg me so sick and guilty but I had to do it and now I have proof but he's also very smart so he answered in ways that I wasn't expecting so now I have to figure out a way to make him tell me the solid truth so I might have to do it again. He has hurt me emotionally and made me feel scared I can't ever forgive that. What should I do?