I want to go crazy, but probably shouldn't?

I've been with my boyfriend for 5 years. He's been a jerk lately. I have this huge award from my workplace and I'm being honored at a fancy banquet. I asked my boyfriend to be my +1, and he said he'll see. Well, the event is this weekend and I texted him 2 days ago, no response. I called him yesterday and it went to voicemail. He's been active on fb so I know he's alive and ok. I called today and I told him I've been trying to get in touch with him for the past 3 days, he says "ok.". I asked him why he didn't respond and he goes "I dunno". Well I told him he obviously isn't interested in speaking to me so I hung up. I want to go over there and yell at him and call him scum. He's known for being a jerk at times. I've wanted to leave but my stupid feelings keep getting in the way. This time I had enough and I'm very heated. What's the right thing to do in this situation? I also have a lot of clothes at his place and would love to get them back. Last month he didn't get or do anything for my birthday after I took him on a racetrack with a Porsche for his bday. He also said he couldn't go take a 3 day trip to the beach with me because he can't get days off from work, but his friend asked if he wanted to go to this car show in another state and he took off a week to go. I thought he was cheating, but I'm with him a lot and his phone is always unlocked and he leaves it out. I feel like he wouldn't do that if he was. I don't know... I just am ready to end this. I realize my self esteem has to be low for me to deal with him.
I want to go crazy, but probably shouldn't?
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