this is the first time ever.
(first Girl i loved so much and she trusted me more than anyone she knew. I didn't broke her trust. )
She said that she just want to leave.
i can't stop thinking about her everyday.
i cry everyday.
i don't like it but I'm crying right now while typing.
i love her.
she told me she can't be with me cause I have nothing to be loved.
I dunno how to get rid of this feeling.
i tried to read jokes.
i tried to go out on walks.
i tried to read books.
i tried to watch movies.
but suddenly in middle of that all I'm crying.
i don't like myself as this weak.
she left me in one point of my life where I needed her the most.
i just had a fight at home.
my dad was beating my mom after smoking marijuana and drinking.
he was beating her like he wants to kill her.
so I went in between them and I choked him till someone else came from neighborhood to save my mom.
she knew this all.
i didn't killed my father. nor was my intention to kill him.
I took my mom and left home.
i live in hostel studying last year of my degree.
and my mom is at my uncle's place.
my mom knew the Girl
she told me to marry her
i wanted that too.
now suddenly she left me saying I have nothing in this world to be loved.
i dunno what to do.
i fee like i should dd. ii. ee. i don't want to but I feel like that.
please help me.
Most Helpful Guy
I feel you man, it'll get easier, not right now, maybe not even this year, but it will, focus on you, get fit, do a sport, get a hobby, hang out with friends, anything that will stop you from thinking about her, I know you don't feel like doing things and all you wanna do is ball into featus position and cry until you die, but you can't, you gotta go on, you do you, and one day you'll start feeling something for someone else, you'll still be scarred and thatll never change, but you'll come out stronger, and you'll know never to love a b*tch more than 90%, just so you got your 10% to go on when she turns out a cunt1THIS IS NOT RELEVANT ANYMORE
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