I know this a decision I need to make on my own. I just want some advice or input. We have been married for 3 years now and we have been together for 8 years. We're a young couple. I don't want to throw 8 years away. Last year I began to be unhappy and I'm still not happy in our marriage. I've told him I'm not happy. I've always done everything for him. I literally built my life Around him. I'm always stuck at home. I have to ask permission to go anywhere. He doesn't like me visiting family or being with friends. He wouldn't even let me go to my best friends husbands funeral. When I ask for a little bit of money to go somewhere he says I don't need it or when I say I want a job he says I don't need one. I don't know what to do anymore. He has put his hands on me in the past. Last year he threw a cellphone at my face and broke my tooth. He hollers at me all the time. I couldn't take it nomore so I Up and left this past weekend to get some space which I'm back now. That was my first time doing that. While I was gone he was calling my mom and calling me crying saying he's going through hell cause I'm gone. And even when I came back after 4 days he acted like he didn't want me here. He was giving me silent treatment. I don't know. I'm so confused. It's driving me crazy. My car is messed up. We have to jump it off to go anywhere. He had the money to fix it but instead he went out and bought $270 worth of hunting stuff. I love him and I care about him but I just don't want to be married anymore. No I'm not cheating on him or anything. I did have depression last year. I was taking medication but I stopped.
Most Helpful Guy
What you are in right now is what they call a toxic relationship. Relationships are meant to be healthy, uplifting, fun, supportive, respecting... All of which doesn't closely apply to your marriage.
If i understand correctly, your husband has taken you for granted and as something he has ownership over. A marriage is a partnership, not an employment.
Your marriage has gotten to the point where it's more about - what your husband likes and dislikes, what hurts him and what doesn't, what's expected of you and what isn't.
Well what about what you desire? What about what makes you happy and feel safe? What about his responsibilities to his wife that he swore at the marriage pedestal? Are those supposed to be some dialogues to get through the marriage formalities?
Conclusion: As others have also stated, please remember you only get to live one life, I don't know how it was in the beginning of those 8 years, but now you're just wasting it in the service of a man who clearly doesn't appreciate you or cares about the happiness in your days. When was the last time you had a kiss that fell your eyes closed and your knees weak? Long time ago I reckon.
You have made your share of efforts in your marriage. There is nothing you need to regret about. You have reached the end of the road and to go further you need to walk back and take a different route.
Hope you find the courage to believe that you deserve to be happy, because that's the biggest thing that stops everyone from actually doing the things that make them happy.
Take care, god bless.1
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Most Helpful Girl
You need to leave that horrible situation as soon as possible. I'm all for giving people chances but not when they consistently behave like as assehole. He only thinks about himself. He is very damaged and unless you want the same merry-go-round then move on. Break free from this prison you are existing in, get out and give yourself a shot and laughing out loud... there will be other decent men out there... at least a few billion of them, you never know where you could meet your happiness but you do know that you are miserable right now. Change that. Good luck.1