I would always get shit from her for not chasing after her. I felt horrible because well isn't that what you do with someone you love?
Anyways, i finally realize that she is the one that always walks away from every argument she starts and can't handle. Its like she continuously tells herself i am cheating, then she brings it up to me and chaos erupts simply because i tell her that i am not cheating (disregarding that we live together). Just today i have decided to emotionally shut down. I cry for what i know now, is not my fault and that just isn't right. I know i have made horrible decisions in life and i am currently dealing with debt. She knows this and will use this and my past health problems to tell me, "you will not find someone who will accept you the way i accept you". Honestly, i dont feel accepted by her. I just feel judged, useless and insignificant.
What should i expect from her (keep in mind we live together) if i emotionally shut down?