My husband and i have been together a total of 4 years, and i have been in love with him since we first met almost 7 years ago. We have a daughter together and he is gone 3 weeks a month for work. I have struggled with fidelity for about a year or so, and though i haven't slept with anyone else yet i think about it on a daily basis. You see, my husband still deals with insecurities from past relationships but he takes them all out on me, spying on me, checking up on me and calling and texting me sometimes 30 times a day. It gets exhausting and im wondering if its even worth trying to be sympathetic and patient anymore when im not even sure if i really love who he has become.