Moved to sanew state about 3 years ago and met this girl at the place I work. Became friends really fast. We ended up getting really close much to her by dismay.
Eventually one night we admitted feelings for each other and shared a kiss which led to sex.
She told me how she's never wanted anything more in her life etc..
Breaks up with her boyfriend the next morning. I thought OK so it will be the two of us. Wrong.
She tells me she's still hurting from the breakup. And needs time but still wants to be friends. I said fine, we still hung out and still hooked for a bit.
Eventually it came to a stop and said no more, she needs to not be in a relationship for a really long time. That I should date this really cute girl that shops at our job.
Like our friendship started with her liking me.
Anyway whatever I decide to respect the decision.
So I decided to focus on me and go NC. Everytime I get a text about a week later with her going off on me for not talking to her.
I tell this girl that enough is enough. Like she has plenty of friends. Why does she only get mad at me when I don't respond?
So I had a conversation with her about it and she tells me that she misses me as a friend and we don't talk much anymore. She just missed how close we are and she promises not to go off on me anymore.
I told her sure we can we can still hang out (but I don't really have the intention of doing so) and I did tell her that a sport we were going to play together I already signed up my team (which I did) and she'll have to find a different team.
Should I just tell her I want all or nothing. and she's even told me she only loses her mind when I go silent but doesn't do it to anyone else. So why me? If we're supposed to be just friends why is she acting like this.
Also I'm not interested in a friendship anymore. Mentally I'm exhausted and don't want to do this anymore. She texted me a bunch yesterday but I just haven't responded
she gave me either stay friends now or stay out of her life. I choose to stay friends cause reasons.
But now at the end like I said I'm not interested in just a friendship anymore