so anyway, we're not friends on facebook, and he can't see my page, so tonight he snooped on a friends page to see what I was up too. he found out that I was dressing up for Halloween, and got the sh*ts cause of the costume I'm wearing he told me not to reply, cause he won't write back. we're not even together? and he was the one who didn't want to keep trying.
so anyways, instead of not trying, I'd just had enough. I sent him the biggest crankiest email in the history of the world simply pointing out that we clearly didn't have a friendship. and that he was willing to ignore me after one thing when I had just got over so many things he'd done, there was a lot. it was a long list, but I was venting at the time.
The annoying thing is, I'm freaking out because as much as he sh*ts me off. I don't wanna lose him. but he doesn't respect me at all. the idea of him not talking to me is hurting me. and I'm sick of having this sick feeling in my stomach constantly. I don't want to apologize cause I always do. what should I do? I'm still cranky, but I'm scared cause I think this might be it this time, like he threatened it so many times before, but what if he's serious? please help?