I only eat one meal a day. I think the biggest shock about the break-up is not so much that I miss him, but more of the disillusionment (loss of innocence, etc.): I just don't view the idea of love like I used to.
I mean, it's great dieting but food doesn't taste good anymore, which is a big deal because I used to really love food. I'd look for good places to eat. Now, I don't look or care. I just know that if I don't eat at least one meal, I won't function. So I'll cook up something. Sometimes I don't finish.
It's been 3 months. I still cry. Not healthy, I know. I haven't talked to my friends much. I'm kind of ashamed of my depressed self so I don't want to show that to my best friends. I've talked to them once about it but I want them to be happy. (One of them just didn't want to hear it.) I don't want to drag them down with all my current emo-ness.
If it keeps up, I may go see a therapist or something. It's just rough right now.
I try to be around friends/people but some of them are couples and they really don't cut back on the PDA. Needless to say, it just doesn't help.
One guy was flirting with me, but he's married. Then, he started flirting with another girl. morals these days. The other guy is shy or wants to ignore me. I don't know or care. No energy for that whatsoever. and it's just going to be a rebound anyway. I can feel it.
I tried TV shows. The ones where people aren't falling in love with each other. and that's not easy to find.
Radio: need I elaborate.
Novels: yea, that's not doing it, either.
Exercise: well, I was doing it before so nothing new.
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Go for a really lond slow run with no music after eatting some food 1 hour before hand. Go to a new place that is quite isolated and do trail running. I find that I often lose heart and mope for weeks on end but when I am running I would feel a lot happier about 20min into the run. when you exersise and get some sun your body releases certain hormones that makes you feel happier.0