My husband of 16 years has done some pretty mean things. 4 years ago I found out he signed up for 22 dating sites, had a secret email, was emailing craigslist girls, watches porn and compares me to how they look. We have two teenagers and I don’t want to distrupt their lives. I have feelings for another man but have no clue if he has feelings back. It’s hard to tell because he’s just nice but we talk a lot. I want to be happy but I don’t know how to move on and have the courage to. I love my husband but I hate him for the pain he’s caused. He tries every day to make it work and I don’t think he does this stuff anymore other than porn. He’s always saying he loves me but I think he broke me to the point of not knowing how to love him back. Please help.