I love him so much but the relationship is completely unmistakably TOXIC. I hate what we have allowed our relationship to turn into. The both of us have changed so much these past few months. We've both done deceitful things that have hurt the other one. And we both have allowed resentments manifest inside us which now have pushed each other so fat away. We've tried everything we can possibly think of to make this work, but its become apparent that its just not going to happen. The problem is that I love him (or theman he once was) so much that every time I actually do leave him, I run back as quick as I left. What do I do?