I was in relationship for the first time ever , I fell in love really hard and 5 months past without us really speaking to each other, till a couple weeks ago go he hit me up and mentioned he was disappointed I didn't say happy birthday to him. I was super shocked, I didn't think he wanted to hear anything from me at out due to his behavior and rude things he would say to me to make me feel terrible. The next couple days we video chatted and he looked pretty happy speaking with me, but it died down again to those empty 5 months. I was doing pretty well getting over him. Now I can't stop thinking about him, and I tried everything : dating apps, seeing friends , staying off his social media , whatever was said... I did. How do I move past this? It's really hard looking at other men and I'm not exactly the classiest young lady (I'm very blunt, goofy, unsophisticated. ) I feel like I let all my goals and ambition fall down hill, I don't even remember who I was before the relationship.