Seeing him still is very hard for me. He was the love of my life and we planned for more children and our future together. He left because all we would do is argue after I gave birth and was a major communication barrier. I can't stop crying. He's here right now and I just wanna say something about how I feel but he always says I'm lying or I have a ulterior motive so I just don't say anything anymore.. how can I cope with this slap of reality?