I know he fucked up big time with me, he doesn't deserve any more chances after the stupid games he played, braking my heart leaving me in a really shitty place for a really long time.
Then I started to think after a couple months of moving on from him I'd try to be friends again after all he was trying to do the same for the sake of the work place (yes unfortunately we work together).
Everything was good, we were just keeping it friendly, saying hi to each other in the mornings into work, having small talk an stuff
Till the other day I was really struggling at work, he was really trying to help me out. Then he left me alone for a bit with this other guy Tom, Tom is just a horrible human to be around in general and was just being a dick to me all day in front of all the new staff and trying to embarrass me when I needed his help which he always says in front of the managers I just need to ask and he will help me if need it but really he just verbally abuses me and is arse hole. Jordan stuck up for me and tried to cheer me up but after I was left with Tom again, he was just being rude and unhelpful again to the point I actually injured myself because of it and a lorry driver took sympathy me and help me out instead.
After that I was really upset, Tom also called me ugly and said I look like a man in front of all the staff, they all laugh and also think it's okay to disrespect me because it's funny to them. So i hid in the toilets to cry and Jordan followed. we had a chat, he made me some tea and cuddled and wiped my tears away. I could just feel all the feelings coming back for him. its so difficult not to just go running back to him after everything when he's so sweet and kind to me.
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Tom needs to be reported to upper management. You were injured because he want's to look "cool" in front of everyone. That's not acceptable.
As for Jordan, your feelings will possibly never fully go away. They may fade with time, but never fully go away. So, getting over him fully is near impossible.
To lessen these feelings, you should look at this from a long term perspective. Is he the type you could see spending the rest of your life with? If the answer is no, then he is the not the type of person you want to go back to. He only meets short term needs, not long term.