I recently had a break up. (If you didn't read my recent questions) and it was terrible. But my heart still belongs to her, I dont see how it will never not belong to her. I dont see how I could love another person when I love her so much. Every day is a painful struggle. I dont even know how to meet people in the adult life, and everyone just asks other people out by physical attraction and that feels wrong to me. I think love should only go to one person (as in romatic love), like if I got married and she either died or divorced me then I would be over, life over, everything over.
Relationships just kinda seem like a waste of time. I worked so hard, so very hard to make her happy. She was my world. Now that's gone, and my kingdom has fell to the ground.