Is there anything I can take that make me stop feeling?

I just don’t want to feel anymore :( I won’t touch anything like drugs or alcohol, I’m a responsible parent and my children are really the only reason I have to even live anymore, despite the fact I’ve lived with constant pain in my heart. I’ve just got to the point in my life where I realise at 30 years old I’ve never been happy and always felt this pain in my heart. Even though if I had no children I’d of probably left this planet a long time ago, I can’t I have to live for them, they need me. But waking up with this deep sadness in my heart every single day is becoming exhausting. Despite the fact I hide my tears everyday from my children, I know they can feel my pain.. x
Is there anything I can take that make me stop feeling?
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