I can't I've tried to but my mind isn't wired like that.
I will rewire your mind!
No, I have the tools. A saw, a screwdriver, some glue and some marbles 🛠️
and what experience
Umm, I once built a desk from IKEA 🤔
It's worth mentioning that obsessive thinking is made worse by having too much time to think. If you can occupy your time and your mind then you are less likely to dwell.
ik i've tried but it's no use anymore
It will get better. I know that it seems easy to say but it will. You will have had all of those internal conversations, from every angle, and there will be no new angles to explore. As you repeat yourself over and over you will accept the futility of it all and the thoughts will be laid to rest.
I'm not sure
Is it a first love?
No first guy to be welcomed and liked in my family. First for a lot of things but he was the one to end it.
LDR? Were you more physical than just kissing?
No and yea. But we weren't having sex but he's not the first guy.
In response to another question, you said something about losing your feelings for him. Were you trying to force yourself to like him?
No. I had blacked out from a prank and my feelings went with it. I wasn't sure how to stop it
You blacked out from a prank? Can you explain?
He was at a friend's house and texted me saying I want to tell you something about myself. And said he was someone else and did drugs... I blacked out for a second and wanted to say ok go od then. But didn't. He asked if i was ok and I said yea which was a lie and we never really talked about it... stuff started to decline emotionally with me and at some point I told him about me blacking out and having to remind myself why I loved him. He was upset and it continued to get worse bc everything was a problem with me and he saw me extremely unhappy and felt like he could never meet my needs.. This episode broke for me when we video chatted for the last time.During this period tho as it continued whenever he would kiss me I wouldn't feel it, he'd say I love you and I would feel empty for a few seconds before saying it back. It was hard to be around him bc of it but I stayed. It was like I went through depression for a year put into a month.
He texted you, so you knew who was sending you the text. But he claimed to be someone else? Maybe I'm confused but this makes no sense.
Yea it was a silly joke over text.
So, did it upset you because it felt like he was playing with your feelings?
No. I wasn't upset or anything or at least I don't think I was bc i didn't think about it nor did we talk about it.
Were you trying to force yourself to like him or were your feelings genuine?
My feelings were genuine. I genuinely love him. He was the first guy I was happy with
Do you think that your feelings for him put you into conflict with anyone else in your life, such as your parents or a close friend?
no. not at all. everyone was happy to see me happy
Do you have any idea why your feelings just went away?
No. My ex always found a way to make me smile but during that tie he could not and it was very difficult. I wanted to smile but couldn't bring myself to because then it would be me forcing it.
So what is the subject of the thoughts that won't go away?
just how do i talk to him since i can't avoid him in school. how do explain my emotions when i couldn't
You don't need to justify or apologize for your feelings. Whatever you feel. . . that's what you feel and you don't get much of a choice about that.
i know but i know i wasn't honest with myself or him in that state and he wasn't completely clear when ending it. I want to be on a clean slate but won't be able to achieve that unless I can be open about how i was feeling. plus there's a strong feeling that if I don't it will be worse later on.
So why haven't you gone to him to discuss this?
because I'm mostly scared. I tried to before he broke up with me but he stopped me saying sorry but goodbye so I just feel like he wouldn't want to talk to me at the moment especially since I have to ask his sister if I can talk to him.
Why must you ask his sister?
his phone got stolen and he left his laptop charger at school
You should go ahead and talk to him. That's what will make this settle down for you.
are u sure?
No. It is my best guess.
okay thank you.
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can't, I feel like he doesn't want to hear from me anymore..
I won't stay focused on a book
No game system.
Hasn't helped. I watched one earlier
Color a coloring book
Ooh. That i have not tried