My ex was always jealous and thought I was cheating. Needless to say it caused problems and he broke up with me and we tried to reconcile. We ended up breaking up again because I could not forgive him for accusing me of cheating. He dumped me again and I lost it. I went off the deep end. My grandpa had just died. I called him like 50 times leaving a million messages. I showed up at his house. He told me he would call the police and he doesn’t love me anymore. I was so stupid and hurt I made a fake fb to spy on him and got caught. I know I was crazy so please save the harsh comments. He ended up changing his number. My heart and world were crushed. 4 months later I’m still not ok. I wonder everyday if he will ever miss me or realize he made a mistake. None of this would have happened if he didn’t get so paranoid. He hates my guts. I am struggling so much. He was my everything. Will he ever see what he did to me?