She was honest and told me and also told me why she freaked out and partied so hard. I was apparantly smothering her even though I tried to make sure I wasn't by making it mutual hanging out and texting 50/50. She's just not used to a non abusive/drug dealer boy friend.
I forgave her we both agreed we'd work through it together. Later we got in a huge fight when she stopped having sex with me one night and honestly said she didn't feel the same sexually. I was drunk and flipped out and we broke up kinda. I told her to tell me it was over for good so I could move on. She said she couldn't and that we both need time. She texted me 4 days later telling me how much she missed me. WE got back together BUT...
She doesn't seem to have the same feelings for me. She doesn't text as much, doesn't seem to be as touchy feely. I know we are both afraid to have sex a little bit. She's afraid I'll get butt hurt if she doesn't want to have sex with me and I'm afraid she doesn't want it.
We hung out tonight. Drank a little. Had sex about 10 minutes in she said she went off and had to stop because she was dry... I got her a glass of water we cuddled for a bit. I told her I loved her for the second time in the night and she said it was too many times... And seems PO'ed and distant. Should I just cut her loose? I"m not about to be playing this game with her. Or is this part of recovery from what had happened.?