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I would say it'd be healthy to completely cut each other out of your lives. Until at least your ready to be around him. Your not over it yet, and that's completely normal. Being around him isn't going to help.
Sometimes you need to just get mad though. It helps you get over it.
You can find a productive way to get rid of that pent up energy, like maybe exercise, or, like you e been doing, writing.
Either way, being around him is making you have these feelings, so cut him off and if things change between you two and you can be over him than great0