I do love him but have not told him since our breakup & I recently told him I 'm not sure if I want to get married again. I am older than him and I wonder if he is doing this Because he loves me and wants to help me out. He is Arabic- they have a different culture and he is a Muslim too but is very sweet & happy usually to me but maybe their religion does not allow living together. Only marriage?.Sometimes he says things like find me a hot girl I think to needle me. But then the other night he told me I was gorgeous and holds me in his arms all night and kisses my forehead. He acts kinda tough a lot almost I think because he is a softy deep down..He does not share his emotions too well. And he leaves his clothes and stuff at my house and we are getting to know each other better since we had a month apart. And he told me he loved me way back but has not said it recently. I am trying to keep my options open too but I am trying not to get all crazy in love because my feelings run too deep and I don't want to get hurt this time. Sex is the greatest than with anyother person I have had and he tells me that too. He looks into my eyes during it too and I cannot believe that this man does not truly love me.
I want to have the talk with him but I don't want to rush it - Because I want to take it day by day and enjoy his company instead of rushing things..Long time ago he said very abruptly Don't push me.Now I talk back to him where before I would just clam up. Sometimes when he tells me to shut something off I look at him and laugh and say OK your the boss and I salute him military style and he laughs too.I am the younger of my family and he is the older of his and its funny we fit like a glove snuggled together. His communication skills are bad sometime due to his inability to talk good English and sometimes it comes across as calloused.Its his accent- almost Russian. But he looks 45 I look 45 but he is 20 years difference and we are strongly attracted to each other it's unbelievable. I think he is very fatherly to me and reminds me of my dad and I am the older but people say I look 41! Please help.