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My first serious relationship was complicated. I was young, naive, and self-absorbed.
She cut herself. She talked about killing herself from time to time. She told me if I ever left her she would do it. I talked myself into believing she wouldn't really do it. She had cut herself so often that I thought that was all she would do. It was normal.
I eventually broke it off. I moved cities and put some distance between us.
I remember the phone ringing one day and hearing her voice on the other end. This was some time later. I don't know how she got my number but it didn't matter.
I remember saying "who is this" knowing full well who it was. She said her name and I don't know why I said it, I didn't think, but I said "don't ever call me again" and she didn't.
She's dead. She slit her wrist and bled out.
I swear to you I felt the weight of that day for years to come. You don't want that. Talk to someone. I don't know who but don't make the same mistake. It'll never leave you.