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It's not abnormal but it is unhealthy. You're right, you're in love with the idea of having a boyfriend, which doesn't necessitate liking the person who has the title. As much as being a trophy husband sounds really awesome to me for you it will only cause you trouble. Advice? First note that you're in love with an ideal. Then note that this is unhealthy and pointless and will lead you only to pain. Then decide consciously and subconsciously that it's not worth it. Then train against the thought.
It's a lot of work. Odds are high you won't do it. I hope someone else comes along and gives you an easier alternative like "OMG JUST BUY AN ESCORT!"0