I've been dating my boyfriend for 5 months, have known him 2 years. He's 25, I'm 28. I'm his first serious girlfriend since high school. He's dated, but he says he's never met someone he wanted to call his girlfriend until me. We have been great friends the past couple of years, and when we finally realized we loved each other, we fell hard and fast. I take his age and inexperience into account when it comes to certain things that would usually bug me. However, I'm afraid that my past issues have unfortunately been creeping into my current relationship. I've had some tough breaks with guys; in emotionally abusive relationships, even have a broken engagement under my belt. So things that should just be minor disagreement turns into me saying "Oh, we should just break up," or "I'm leaving." That has become my defense mechanism, because I'm tried of being hurt. I feel like I should leave before getting hurt. However, he has never given me any reason to not trust him, and while he's not perfect and has screwed up a few times...I love and care for him wholeheartedly. He even discussed marriage and moving in together in the very beginning of us dating. However, every time we fight, I threaten to leave. Even though I don't mean it. I have sworn up and down that I will NEVER do this again, since I want to have a clear line of communication with him and want to work through our problems instead of giving up. And I haven't for a good 3 weeks now.
I've started every fight, I admit it. And I know that a relationship of 5 months should not be that hard. However, I have realized he's been treating me differently the past few weeks. He's distant, not attentive and just doesn't seem "checked in." I have been dying inside, and finally confronted him about it in a very professional way. And he was honest. He said ever since the last time I said "I'm leaving" he emotionally checked out. He says he definitely cares for me, and realizes how much I do for him. He says he wishes he could reciprocate, but he's afraid it's not enough. I told him I do the things I do for him because I care for him (cook, clean, just be there, etc.) and that I do not expect anything in return except for his love and support. He also notes the difference in the stages of our lives: He's just finishing school and I'm already well into my career. He's afraid I'm thinking marriage, baby soon and he's nowhere close (although he mentioned it in the very beginning? wtf?) Truth is, I see that in my future, but I'm more focused on finding the right person to share that with. Even if it takes 10 years, if I'm happy, that's all that matters. But his entire demeanor towards me has changed. He's checked out. He still shows affection, but it's almost like we're just going through the motions. I told him I cannot live like this, that I want someone that wants to be with me. He says he does, and that it's going to take work. But I'm afraid I'll never get it back to the amazing beginning. Will he ever check back in with me?
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i understand the feeling of wanting to leave before you get hurt. I've been there. been cheated on, and engagements broken as well...
that said, and again I've dealt with this, if you threaten to leave enough times it makes it hard for a person to fully invest in the relationship. just as you feel like you have to protect yourself I imagine your boyfriend feels similarly and so he is checking out a bit so that if you do finally follow through on your threat to leave and end the relationship his investment isn't as great.
kinda like a stock that seems very volatile and on teh brink of collapsing. the investory will probably pull out entirely or at least somewhat to protect their investment right?
I think you just need to tell him, look I know I've got to work on my committment issues. I know I've got to stop threatening to leave. Explain how you feel about him and ask him to please give you a chance to a) improve yourself and b) prove your devotion to this relationship...
that said don't ignore or let him get away with things if they are truly inappropriate behaviors in a relationship. while you are concerned about your own history he needs to take responsibility for his behaviors and work to improve it. you both should really just work on things and understand that is is a work in progress1THIS IS NOT RELEVANT ANYMORE