When he sat me down to have this conversation, he basically said he didn't like me and didn't want to complicate this club we are both in... he showed me this note that he apparently typed 3 WEEKS before this conversation, saying how badly he wanted to get out of the town he's been living in for his entire life. Never once did he mention anything about me holding him back.
It's been about a month now. Unfortunately we have to see each other everyday, and he looks sad and disconnected. I do my best to act fine and I even went on a date recently (not rubbing it in his face). After sending some regretful drunk texts, I apologized a few days later and he said to be careful with the drinking because he cares about me. But didn't you say you didn't like me?
Yesterday after a meeting, I hung back to finish up some notes and he remained in his chair. Everyone else had already left and I assumed he wanted to try and talk to me. He was definitely looking at me but I put some earbuds in and started some music. He remained there a little longer, not even trying to catch my attention. Then he left, as he went down the stairs, he purposely yelled to the group if anyone wanted to go to the bar. Clearly throwing it in my face.
So what the f***? Any advice? I'm not trying to get him back. He clearly has intimacy issues. I'm just going to keep on with the poker face and hope I can move on.
P.S. This sounds lame but I love him and I always will... we talked about that when he initiated the conversation. Oh also the conversation lasted 2 nights in a row, both ending with him getting pissed and storming off.