and if for some reason he still likes me I can't go out with him because he got a girl pregnant freshmen year and his parents still want them together...
and he was a douche because I heard that he only liked me because I was a cheerleader
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It's very hard when you are hung up on one person, I feel for you.
The only way you can understand what you want in life is to have a range of experiences (not just sexual ones!), with a range of people. That way you can compare, and learn more about yourself. There is no age when you must have certain experiences, no deadline. You keep learning your whole life.
It does not make you less than someone else if you have not kissed a guy, or done something else. The most valuable thing is when you learn your true self-worth.
In your future there will be people who value and respect you, you can learn to recognise them if you try, and if you are prepared to look for them.