I broke it off and did everything I could to help him and make it easier for him ( Giving him 5 weeks to move out, paid his rent once, still hung out and cuddled when he was lonely) It's now been 5 months. We're still talking and friendly but it's also been a lot of up and down. I was extremely busy with work the past few months and some days he was supportive and helpful and loving telling me he'd give me the time I needed to think things out; then 2 days later I would get the " I'm not worthy, you abandoned me, my patience is running out" type of emotional text novels.
We both still love each other and I still want him in my life as a friend. We've even managed to talk through a few of our issues. We've also admitted that neither of us fully committed before ( because of my trust issues and his cheating and insecurity)
So here's the problem. I'm willing to try dating again and see what happens from there, at the very least, maintain the great friendship we have. He wants to move back in or cut all ties completely. To him, moving back in means that we're fully committed to making things work and it means a lot to him. I'm not ready to move back in together as I like my space and bit of freedom from having my own place and think we can still be in a serious committed relationship while not living together. I'm also afraid that we're going to fall back into old patterns again as he's still not working and would have to sell everything and move in with his mom if he doesn't move in with me.
I also slipped the other day and slept with him ( first time since the break). To me, it was a good bye, to him it was a sign that we're getting back together.
I'm feeling stuck because he says I just want things on my terms and that's not fair but if I don't go with his terms ( moving in) I lose him completely. Is there any middle ground here? Should I let him move back in? Any help or perspective would be appreciated