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Well that was a different post than I expected. It was a much better read than I expected.
I'm gonna be pretty brutally honest with you here, and don't take offense to this, but you need to man up. I'm not gonna sit here and tell you I know how it is to be molested, because I don't. I'm not gonna tell you I know how it is to be you exactly, because I don't. But I'm going to tell you that I have been terrified of certain things,and that I have fell to be deepest pit of loneliness. I'm going to tell you that I have felt abused mentally to a point of extreme anxiety among other problems, and I blamed my whole life on these things, I blamed all of my failures on them. So I can tell you these problems aren't weights bound around your ankles, and the problem is able to be overcome. However, searching for sympathy, and allowing them to give reason to your actions should not be acceptable. Why? Because these things are obstacles, and justifying your actions by giving yourself excuses pulls you down to earth so hard you are incapable of jumping those obstacles. Between you and her are where these obstacles lie. Now you can either jump them, or you can continue to crash into them, and I shouldn't have to tell you which one will get you to her and which one will fail.
Now when you get to her, and I believe you will, will you get what you ultimately desire? That no one will be able to answer, not even her. I can tell you though, that you will have obtained something regardless of outcome, and that is personal and inner strength. Something invaluable, something very worth it, and something to hold great pride in.