Two weeks ago I met a guy & found him attractive. We became friends on Facebook & I found out he had a girlfriend which he was in love with & though I was disappointed I still talked to him cause he is everything I ever wanted in a guy. We went to a party together & he was there with his girlfriend. We were drinking & having fun. At one point I went to the bathroom to fix my hair and he followed me in where he grabbed me, said I am beautiful and irrisistable & then went in for a kiss which I first rejected & reminded him he has a girlfriend but he said he didn't care & kissed me. The kiss felt incredible, it was like magic.These secret kisses carried on for the whole night & whenever we got a second alone we would be in each others arms, the attraction was so strong. That night we met up in the bathroom & had sex, afterward he came back to my room to reassure me he wasn't using me, he just finds me irrisistable & that there is something mysterious & different about me (hearing this melted my heart). He kissed me & went back to his room but a few hours later I was woken up by him climbing into my bed and saying that I am too irrisistable and he wants me, we had sex again.The next day we kept glancing at each other from across the room & I wasn't sure if he regreted what we did but at one point he kissed me again & reassured me he didn't which made me the happiest I have ever been, that this perfect guy did actually want me.After going home we talked for hours, it came down to it that we both really wanted to be together but he cheated on his girlfriend & felt bad about it, he thought he loved his girlfriend but after meeting me he felt that we are meant to be together however he can't just throw away his life, he wanted to see me again so we met the next day.
It was awkward at first, I didn't want to be forceful because it was his relationship that was at risk & I didn't want to ruin things for him, later on however,after he kissed me we felt more relaxed. We said that everything seems right when we are together & we are so happy. I still had thoughts going through my mind that it cannot be true that this perfect guy likes me, but he did. Not only that, he wanted me & said I was perfect for him. Though at the end of the day when standing on opposite sides of his kitchen, I was just looking at him & he was looking back into my eyes, he then grabbed his chest and covered his mouth like his heart was hurting & had to sit down because he was confused, he wanted me but had his life already sorted out. It broke my heart seeing him like that. That night we both cried in our own homes and he self harmed, I called him at night to make sure he's alright & after our conversation he said that he knows for sure he wants me, that I am perfect and that I HAVE HIS HEART
The next day he called me saying he is sorry but he can't leave his life & girlfriend for me even though he has strong feelings for me.I feel I don't want to live anymore ,im selfharming & I need him but I have to leave him alone. what should I do?
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I don't even know where to start. If I was going to write a play about a young girl who did stupid stuff and got hurt from it, no one would believe your story because it hit every cliche out there.
But here's a short list of things to do:
1) Stop having causal sex with guys
2) Stop having sex with guys with girlfriends -as you found out, they never leave and you get played
3) Stop hanging out with idiots who cut themselves and act like drama queens.3THIS IS NOT RELEVANT ANYMORE
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