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As hard as it is, you have to now push yourself to move on, sweetie. I realize, from everyrthing she did to you, that you have the "ghost of yesterday" following you like a demon, constantly reminding you of someone you loved very much, but in turn, who hurt you so bad that it left a terrible scar behind.
Try to get out more, get involved with your friends, and perhaps this will help take your mind off of your pain and anguish. It's been a year now, so it is high time you did find another, who will love and respect you more than she ever did.
Might I suggest going online to start your "sweetheart search." many people today are doing this, and many times it Does have great results. Find a reputable site, and create a charming, fresh profile, where you can begin again a new life. Sometimes it does take a long time to find the right one again, still "riding shot gun" with the ones from the past, and might I also suggest something else:
Get rid of the old bed, buy a used one, and try hard to block out the songs of her and-----what you both once had.