I ended us hooking up because I felt like it was leading down a bad path as it was a total secret and I knew if it continued i would fall for him. When i ended it suddenly he was angry, treated me like dirt and we started getting into huge fights ( yelling, name calling, you name it). One day i got so angry i told the other roommates that we had been hooking up. He told me he would never speak to me again and we got in other huge fights. I ended up leaving without telling anyone and moving out of the house.
After we didn't speak for months he messaged me apologizing. I accepted however i was still very upset that he treated me the way he did. When i got back into town, i went to his house and apologized for telling people. Ever since ( its been about a year) we haven't really seen each other too much, but when i see him he is either extremely nice to me, or extremely rude. I am not sure if he actually "hates me" like he has said he does or if he is having trouble coping or if he doesn't know what to do with me. I need advice because I truly care about him, I know he has some emotional problems but I miss him both as my friend and I suppose as my lover. Any advice is appreciated!