Hey guys, old fashioned 22 year old male romantic here. Finishing up my Master's degree in Engineering. Been on a few dates each with a few different women that I met online (Bumble). One girl I dated for 3 months, and after one of our 5 dates (the last one) she never texted me again for no reason whatsoever. I thought we were developing a nice connection but nah. Didn't even have the heart to text me and say "hey it's not working out." Pretty much the same thing happened with the other two girls, except those situations only lasted about a month - 1.5 months. The point is, a girl can be dating you for a decent period of time, and have no problem dropping you just like that when the next best thing presents itself. She won't have the decency to tell you either. She'll leave you wondering.
Got onto OkCupid because some girl I know recommended it to me. I spent a lot of time analyzing profiles and coming up with personal messages for about 50 different women and only received about 5 responses. For those 5 people, we got into good conversations for a few days. Then 4 of them ghosted me out of the blue, one of them gave me her number and texted me for a while and then also ghosted me. This must be the worst site on earth for the average looking male. I'll be deactivating it soon. Again, women can't ever send the first message. Why would they?
Pretty much guys, if you're dating online and you're average looking, you're f**ked. You might think you're good and land some dates, but she'll leave you once she finds the next best thing. Even if it's been a few months, don't get your hopes up. The numbers game is seriously stacked against guys, and it's exhausting. And here I was trying to value relationships and wait for the right one before I lose my virginity, that ain't happening I guess. I'm just so god damn frustrated right now. All of this rejection is starting to make me feel worthless and that I have no purpose in life. Sure it feels good to be athletic and academically successful, but being unlovable is by far the worst.
I really wish the dating world was what it was back in the 1980s and 1990s. I feel like girls didn't have such inflated egos and ghost you. They were more direct and actually had some semblance of how morality works. Now each woman has 43223525235 options, what's the point? Even if a miracle does occur and you click, how long will it last before she does something irrational? If only I didn't have sexual urges, that'd be amazing. Guess I'll be spending the rest of my life working on medical devices and then traveling around the world by myself. I guess that's not so bad. Reaching that point of knowing that I'll always be a virgin forever unless I hire a sex worker is really really getting to me though. I truly wish I had just never tried in the first place.