Dear fuckboy (he knows who he is and yes all the quotes are the exact texts he sent me),
I used to be a quiet good girl, had never flirted with a guy before, let alone do anything that relates to sexual behaviour. And then y'all come sliding into my dms and acting all sweet and trying to get me to open up. I've never done this before, so I see it as an opportunity to brush up on my flirting skills.
Hey Sleep tight lol, text me when you wake up ;)
You seem like you want to try to get to know me, but then everything turns around and next thing you know you want to see what I look like, haha, sure I'm comfortable with letting a guy half way across the world see my face when we just started texting....Then you jump straight into sending me naked shirtless pictures of you. Did you know I was stupid enough to fall in your trap? You must be a wizard!
Then the next thing, I know, you're calling me "hot af" when it's just a picture of me with a retarded dog filter and telling me you're gonna masterbate to my picture. Then you seem like you're trying to get to know me, then the next minute you're telling me you're "not exactly small ;) ". Every day it's just 60% sexually flirting and 40% talking about life.
You tell me you want to talk to me until you fall asleep, and the things you would do to me. Obviously I started to let my guard down, just a stupid girl who hasn't gotten guy's attention in her whole life is all.
ugh I wanna cuddle the shit out of you rn you little bitch....cudddleee meeee.......Dude im telling you now if we cuddle its not gonna end in cuddling
Why am I so addicted to this guy whom I've never met who calls me baby girl and princess? We're both still in high school!!
But here is where the truth comes out....
"I hate that you dont really send any pics, full body shots, selfies, ass, boobs, etc xD and well you could respond a bit faster and more texts" BUT THEN YOU BE HITTING ME WITH THIS BULLSHIT!
"I wanna see Youuuu not some other girl"
I'm stupid but I ain't an idiot lmao (iCarly reference) so I tell you my boundaries obviously. But why the hell do you tell me you respect them?! You're suppose to say you want to stop talking! :( ugh
The next few days you just tell me all about your sports and whatnot, but honestly speaking, that's not something I want to talk about especially when you don't ask questions about me. You then tell me a story of your depression and your family and stuff. That's when I started to think hmmm, is he being honest with me, or still being a player? Then, you compliment me and I start to feel butterflies in my tummy, then you go back to the whole "I want to see another picture of you" ugh. Then you tell me about sports, and how you're involved in charity and work hard in school. That's amazing, and makes me rethink all the times I thought you were an asshole... until you say this
ugh I wish I could just fucking pound your tight pussy with my cock, I wanna show you my dick but Ik you're not a fan of nudes
But then you choose to "accidentally" send me one anyway. And I go with it. Not because I'm stupid, not because I'm a slut. It's because for the first time, I actually thought that a guy really liked me enough to trust me with that and not expect anything back. Yes I sent you 2 pictures, part of my upper thigh and panties, and a bit lower than my collarbone while wearing a bra. That's as far as things are going, but you are sending me full on nude videos because you want to.
Then the next few days we are talking about life again. You try to make me jealous one day, but turns out you're just talking about your sports equipment, like how some guys call their car a "her". Then you tell me about your friend, and how you are trying to help them become a better person, etc. This all seems like a good genuine interaction. Until I made the choice to message you through my friend's account. Straight off the bat, I find out you were talking to another girl before me. Scary thing is I look like her, and talk like her, and have the same hobbies and interests as her. But the thing that broke my heart the most is that you sext other girls and get nudes from them and apparently there's another "special" girl who sent you a slutty video of herself to you and you "get hard thinking about it"
and she was really special because every girl always does the same boring angles
Obviously, I feel stupid for even sending you any revealing photos even though they were not nudes, but give up your hope of getting any more pictures from me in the future. Every day, you talk about life with me and tell me you miss me, but how many other girls are you saying that to? And why are you ignoring me when I want to show you something I made, that I am proud of? Do you care about me at all? Why do you lie and break my heart?
Hey sorry I've not been feeling like texting at all, just letting you know that I think about you…..
Why do you call me cute names and tell me I'm adorable, and strong, and smart, and independent? Now it makes me feel like all this was just a lie. Why do you ignore my texts some days and then come back with an explanation and say you missed me? Why did I fall for your attention, and crave your validation? Am I not enough for you and have I wasted time trying to impress you? Are you really this superficial?
I've never met you and you're definitely not the most attractive guy out there in terms of face, but I think I've caught feelings for you, I secretly hope we will get to meet and fantasize about hanging out with you. Is it time to let go of you because you're too much of a f*ckboy for me?
Love, the girl who had her heart broken by you....thank you for teaching me.
you don't need motivation if you're driven, motivation comes and goes....don't remember it, live it