I have never had a boyfriend, except one. He was actually a player and by what now seems like a miracle, he said he wanted a relationship and wanted to be with me. I was 22, my first boyfriend. He first wanted to mess around with me and I said I don't overstep a line if I am not in a relationship. Once we were together, I told him I never wanted to sleep with someone I'm not in a relationship with. However, that relationship ended eventually because of me. After that, I met nice guys, who were really loving and caring. They never did anything to indicate they weren't that into me. They were available, kept in touch, would talk to me all time, make plans, send me loving messages and discuss everything under the moon. But it somehow never lead to a relationship, on their part. This has happened with 3/4 guys. I am 27 now and I have given up on love, partly due to my own conditioning that a guy will never commit to me and even if he shows interest its probably not real and i know 100% that I will never have my happy ending. I know people say I can't think like that, but the 4 guys are the only ones I was serious about. There are many guys whom I went on dates with and weren't serious either. So with a string of such outcomes, me trying to improve myself etc. I realise it is what it is. I have several friends with major flaws that I don't even have. I'm easy going but clear that I won't settle for less. We all have flaws, but I have always given and never gotten back. However, since I know something is wrong with me and I don't get why guys love me so much, cry and feel hurt when rejecting me but actually never really liked me in the first place since if a guy really likes a girl, he commits to her. Its not the type of guys etc, my ex is the only player I liked and he was absolutely in love with me but the other guys were regular nice guys who just never think I'm worth committing to. So when I meet guys now, I know they aren't really interested.
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Its not just guys. Its girls too. Im in a similar situation like you. I had many girls showing signs all the time that they like, we were talking, going out but none of these girls ever wanted something more. All disappeared all of a sudden not caring anymore. I have not given up on girls yet, but I don't have much hope about finding someone either. Every girl I meet is either ''fuck and leave'' or just loses interest after a while.0