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Hi, I'm going to be 100% real with you here so listen up. I am making myself anonymous because I want to tell you that I am 20 years old and a lot like you: I'm shy, awkward, and a late bloomer. I've never been on a date, never kissed a guy, or held hands with a guy. I know you said to exclude the reasons for why you do this, but I can relate and have something I want to say. I have the exact same thoughts on suicide. The thing is though, you should not kill yourself because of these things. You said your reasons are selfish. I do not think they are selfish. They are legitimate things to be upset about, but they are not good reasons. You never know when somebody will come along. I have a secret crush on a guy who sounds exactly like you described yourself and he's the same age. I think he likes me too! This could be you one day, but if you kill yourself... it will never be you.
And again I'm being completely real with you. I am not just saying this because I pity you or because I'm trying to talk you out of suicide. I am not doing any of those things. I just wanted to say that I would not ever think less of a guy that cries occasionally, especially if it's just in the privacy of his own home. Out in public might be another story because it may seem attention seeking or whiny. In fact, I would actually love it if a guy admitted to me that he cried because it is very brave to admit such a thing. It also shows that he is not afraid to show emotion and be himself (good traits to have). Showing emotion is showing maturity. All humans cry... male and female. It is natural and nothing to be ashamed of.
If a girl thinks less of you because you cry occasionally, then she's most likely really shallow and heartless. I really hope things work out for you.1THIS IS NOT RELEVANT ANYMORE